I keep forgetting what I have written here and what I have written someplace else. I have in fact made some mention of where last year went and by last year I mean from about May 2012 until just about right now and possibly some after now because psych med adjustments and withdrawals are unpredictable thus however almost normal relatively speaking that is I may be today I cannot postulate anything about tomorrow other than that if I see the sun come up I will have been able to open my eyes. But for instance I cannot take for granted that if I open my eyes after sunrise I will see anything at all. Not because my vision has been particularly skitterish but because consistency on a large scale has been quite so and for long enough that I have left off counting on anything.
This is not to say I do not rely on anyone or anything. I do. And but as much anguish as it might cause to be deprived of any of the persons or other collections of heterogenous energies that I have come to regard as necessary for my own stability I have very little sense of any force of continuity that might compel any of them to continue to exist or to appear or to congregate as such.
Incredible as this might sound this outlook is much more peaceful and comforting than most any other I have been able to put together on the basis of experience and judgment and reasoning or whatever borked neurological structures may be trying to compose experience or judgment or reasoning for me. It took decades to get this far.
Tautology: it takes decades to grow old.
Anyway what happened was this: stalking feet and I have not posted anything like it over here. That is some of what is posted there explains some of what came to pass between last year at this time and this year at this time. I do not know if it will explain anything or even if there is any need for an account of where I went beyond that account I keep for myself which account is not fully laid out there to begin with but I had thought I already made a note here about what I did for summer fall winter and spring vacation but I see now that this is not the case.
So.
Since posting stalking feet I have also finished and posted covert citizenship in the land of one thousand dances. These two installments are the grand total for 2013 so far.
As already noted, that is all there is to say about what I might write after today.
blog@ eriktrips 
You know, I am a fan of your war on capitalization, but I just could not make it through “stalking feet” without it.
yeah? hm..
I will think about this and try to come up with something. I am not sure how wedded I am to this war (mixing metaphors for fun and profit!) at the moment so I might just revert to the tyranny of, um, capitalism. but there may be other solutions.
I suspect the problem may be that the long convoluted sentences are already difficult enough to parse and the lack of capitalization makes it hard to instantly recognize where sentences begin and end? or something like that? tell me what you are experiencing, if you don’t mind taking the time.
thanks! :)